If I had to describe this book in one word it would be hot mess. Not because the writing was bad, just the main characters and their relationships and the plot line…hot mess.
Ollie is struggling after the death of her father, who committed suicide. Ollie believes that she’s broken beyond ‘fixing’, and I feel like that image is only backed up by her unhealthy relationships with both her ‘best friend’, Sadie, and her ex boyfriend Arron, who is engaged to Sadie. They both put Ollie down a lot, in both obvious and more discreet ways, but they know that Ollie will come back after a few days. I hated Sadie and Arron with a passion.
Ollie is not the kind of MC everyone will love; she has a kind of inner strength, but it’s not in an obvious way, more like a “it’s so hard to get out of bed but I’m trying” kind of way. She’s fragile, and a people pleaser, and there were times where I just wanted to cuddle her.
She isn’t perfect. There was a part at the end where I felt like drop kicking her. Or maybe more accurately, drop kicking her self sabotaging behaviours.
Or, maybe even more accurately, drop kicking Arron. Dickhead.
The romance was sweet. Nothing mind blowing or anything, and it was slightly unrealistic.
(If I was creeping around in some neighbour’s font garden I would get fucking arrested, not invited in for a cuppa.)
(Why can’t romance be as simple as a novel? Sigh.)
Ollie’s idea that her false lashes can stop her from crying sort of broke my heart because it’s the kind of desperate, last ditch attempt at normality that I’ve done myself in the past.
*thanks to NetGalley and the publisher for providing me with a copy of this book*