Whenever I read a Jennifer Armentrout book, I always end up wanting to have a full on binge read of all of her books. They’re so addicting. The writing, the characters, the romance, all of it. Addicting.
Lena is going into her senior year. She lives a typical teenage life; hanging out with friends, planning for colleges, going out to parties. Until one day she doesn’t. Until one day she makes a decision that results in an accident that takes the lives of four of her friends. She struggles with her guilt of surviving while her friends didn’t, and, as someone who constantly looked forward to a tomorrow, struggles with the idea of tomorrow not being guaranteed.
I loved Lena straight away. She’s a bookworm (there are some serious shoutouts to A Court of Thorns and Roses!), and values her time reading. After the accident, however, she can’t get into her reading, and at the end when she read again? I got a lump in my throat, I ain’t gonna lie.
I love how fleshed out Lena’s character is I love how her feelings were explored; that after the accident, guilt and emptiness are normal. I also love how nobody coddled her and told her that it wasn’t her fault. They straight up told her that she had to take responsibility for her actions, and her part in the accident. Her grief makes her selfish, so consumed by her own feelings that she doesn’t realise that other people are just as affected as her.
But I adored her character growth. It was done so well, and I LOVED it when her counsellor said that her recovery would happen slowly and all at once because YES. Yes, that is so bloody true.
And Sebastian…my god, why don’t I have a best friend who I’m secretly in love with and who is also secretly in love with me?
(To be honest, I should have just stopped that question at “Why don’t I have a friend?”)
I loved how persistent Sebastian was. Even when Lena pushed him away, he knew what she was trying to do and wouldn’t be budged. I was rooting for them both, because their relationship was just so freaking cute, it made me all warm and fuzzy inside (and also a whole lotta jealous).
*I received an e-copy of this book via the publisher*